Friday, June 26, 2015



As I search for a morsel of truth in the actions of our disingenuous plutocracy ~ I find myself always falling back to the truths of the late George Carlin, our modern day Mark Twain, who not only saw the duplicity of our present actions but was more than willing to speak his truth with biting humor and sarcasm: Allen L Roland, Ph.D


“How is it possible to have a civil war?”
~ George Carlin


George Denis Patrick Carlin was an American stand-up comedian, social critic, actor, and author ~ born in 1937 and died on June 22, 2008 at the age of 71 ~ but his truth lives on.

On the anniversary of his passing seven years ago, I pay homage to his courage and willingness to speak his truth to power ~ for George Carlin remains a hero to all those who seek the truth, including myself, as well as a constant inspiration to those who would speak their truth during these disingenuous times.

Here's George cutting through the layers of deception and revisionist history of the American government to concisely explain the real objectives of our rulers upon the population, despite what they say to the public. You really don't need to read very far into this subject to reach a similar conclusion.

3 minute YouTube video ~ with over 5 million views.


 Life Reflections by George Carlin


1.  Never raise your hands to your kids. It leaves your groin unprotected.

2.  I'm not into working out. My philosophy is no pain, no pain.

3.  I'm in shape. Round is a shape.

4.  I'm desperately trying to figure out why Kamikaze pilots wore helmets.

5.  Do illiterate people get the full effect of alphabet soup?

6.  I've always wanted to be somebody, but I should have been more specific.

7.  Ever notice when you blow in a dog's face he gets mad at you, but when you take him in a car he sticks his head out the window?

8.  Ever notice that anyone going slower than you is an idiot, but anyone going faster than you is a maniac?

9.  You have to stay in shape. My mother started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 now and we have no idea where she is.

10, I have six locks on my door, all in a row. When I go out, I lock every other one. I figure no matter how long somebody stands there picking the locks, they are always locking three of them.

11. One out of every three Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of two of your best friends. If they are OK, then it must be you.

12. They show you how detergents take out bloodstains. Think if you've got a T-shirt with bloodstains all over it, maybe your laundry isn't your biggest problem.

13. Ask people why they have deer heads on their walls and they tell you it's because they're such beautiful animals. I think my wife is beautiful, but I only have photographs of her on the wall.

14. A lady came up to me on the street, pointed at my suede jacket and said, "Don't you know a cow was murdered for that jacket?" I said "I didn't know there were any witnesses. Now I'll have to kill you too."

15. Future historians will be able to study at the Jimmy Carter Library, the Gerald Ford Library, the Ronald Reagan Library, and the Bill Clinton Adult Bookstore.

The magic of George Carlin was his ability to make me laugh at myself, the government and the blatant disingenuous nature of our times ~ it seemed almost Zen-like, and I believe it was, for Carlin indeed knew how to plant ideas in our minds, much like Twain, with his irreverent truth and humor.


 But when you're in front of an audience and you make them laugh at a new idea, you're guiding the whole being for the moment. No one is ever more him/herself than when they really laugh. Their defenses are down. It's very Zen-like, that moment. They are completely open, completely themselves when that message hits the brain and the laugh begins. That's when new ideas can be implanted. If a new idea slips in at that moment, it has a chance to grow.”
George Carlin, Last Words


Allen L Roland, Ph.D

Heart centered spiritual consultant and advisor Allen L Roland can be contacted at Allen is also a lecturer and writer who shares a weekly political and social commentary on his web log and website He is also featured columnist on Veterans Today and  guest hosts a monthly national radio show TRUTHTALK on



Sunday, June 21, 2015


A heart centered approach to assist combat veterans with PTSD has not only proved effective but has led to inner transformation for many combat veterans in the past five years. I present a composite of two graduates of the Healing the Wounded Hearts (Band of Brothers) program in Northern California where Johnny finally came home to a life of meaning , value and framed in gratefulness: Allen L Roland. Ph.D


“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”  ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson


It is estimated that at least 40% of combat troops suffer from Post traumatic Stress disorder (PTSD) ~  a disorder that an individual is diagnosed with after being directly exposed to an extreme traumatic event such as witnessing an actual or threatening death experience, serious injury, or someone who has been fatally injured.  PTSD can also be triggered by a threat to one’s physical integrity or learning, or witnessing an unexpected or violent death, serious harm, or being threatened of death or injury by a family member or other close associate.

             The person with PTSD that is exposed to a particular event usually has experienced intense fear, helplessness, or a horror event ~ which results in disorganized or agitated behavior and usually reinforces earlier emotional separation where it then becomes an emotional block to joy and happiness.

Many people who have PTSD have experienced the trauma event through military combat, violent personal assault (sexual and/or physical), robbery, mugging, taken against their will as a hostage, terror attack, torture, prisoner of war in a concentration camp, involved in various disasters, horrendous auto accident, or diagnosed with a life threatening illness ~ in other words civilians can also experience all the symptoms of PTSD.

              This post will share with you the experiences of a composite person who I will call Johnny, who has been diagnosed with PTSD as a result of being in the military and being exposed to a traumatic event.  Johnny served in the military for 28 years and his last deployment was in 2007.  Although it has been eight years since Johnny was active in the military, his experiences and the PTSD still impact his daily life today.


        According to the DSM-V, there are five symptom clusters for PTSD: stressor, intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity.  Johnny, who is a composite of two actual combat veterans with PTSD as well as graduates of the Healing the Wounded heart (Band of Brothers) self-healing group, experienced multiple symptoms in each of the five clusters.

With respect to stressor symptoms, Johnny witnessed the traumatic event of a military vehicle hitting an improvised explosive device (IED) along with witnessing the aftermath of what happened to those individuals that were in the vehicle collision as well as  the individuals who were trying to save them which included himself. 

This event dramatically impacted Johnny as there was a shift in his personality, as he acted in unexpected ways before and after being deployed, which was particularly noticeable to those closest to him.

He became constantly on edge, hyper vigilant, more irritable, easy to startle, and feared leaving the house and having social interactions when before, he was very easy-going and social. The event also impacted his transition to civilian life and his ability to cope with day-to-day stressors.       

        Intrusion symptoms include having recurring, or reliving intrusive memories of the trauma. These symptoms include having traumatic nightmares, dissociative reactions such as flashbacks, intense or prolonged grief after the event and marked psychological reactions after being exposed to the trauma related stimuli.

         A month after Johnny returned from his deployment he started experiencing traumatic nightmares and was reliving the event over and over in his head. He started to feel a sense of responsibility of not being able to change the event and wanted to go back in time to that day and change the outcomes by thinking about what would have happened if the military convoy left earlier, took a different route, etc.

         The nightmares were so real to Johnny that he would relive the traumatic event in his dreams to the smallest details, from how pretty it was that night and morning, to the smell of explosive, diesel, dirt, etc.  For months, Johnny experienced these nightmares daily when he first returned from the military.

         These days the nightmares are minimal but sometimes still impact Johnny’s sleeping habits.  The impact of the recurring nightmares included lack of sleep, jumping out of bed in a pool of sweat, and a fear of getting a good night’s sleep.  The lack of sleep, or getting to sleep further exacerbated Johnny’s feelings of being on edge.

         Experiencing the nightmares affected Johnny’s job performance at work as he struggled to concentrate on the task at hand and was eventually let go after two years after his return from combat.   


 Isolation is the principle precursor to the rising Veterans suicide rate.

To deal with some of these difficult life issues, and his growing isolation, Johnny resorted to abusing alcohol and pain killers. 

Although he had returned to the U.S, he lacked the ability and desire to follow his own path in life.

         In other words, although he had physically come home, he didn't feel as though he was really here. It was as if there was an invisible wall between him and life. There didn't seem to be much of a reason for life, survival or the future. He tried to hide from his real feelings, by using drugs and alcohol and lots of it.

          Johnny was so haunted by these memories that he didn’t want to keep remembering so he dulled his senses with alcohol and drugs. He self-medicated in order to avoid dealing with the issues at hand, thus delaying his recovery and reinforcing his isolation.

          Johnny also had problem remembering simple things, like what day it was, losing things, forgetting to bathe and brush his teeth, driving and forgetting where he was going.  He also reported feelings of depression and feeling unmotivated to make behavior changes since his feelings of self-worth were also affected.  Johnny would get in the car and start driving and then lose his train of thought and end up missing his destination.  Johnny also became disorganized and had difficulty prioritizing his day

           Johnny said he would keep from driving down crowded streets as well as heavily trafficked and loud placesAs a result, Johnny didn’t like to drive in the mornings and evenings during peak traffic times, he felt like he was closed-in.  In the military, Johnny was trained to constantly be on the move as to not be a sitting target, but while in the car and sitting in traffic, Johnny felt on edge because he could not control his environment and he was afraid that the next car was going to explode or another driver was going to take a shot at him.

          Johnny was always very defensive, jittery or irritated of other drivers, feeling like he was not in control, breathing heavily, sometimes pulling over to gather his thoughts to remind himself that he was okay and was not in the environment he left behind.              

          Johnny avoided shopping malls and grocery stores because he felt stressed by the proximity of so many people around him, which caused him to hurry up and want to leave the threatening environment right away. Many times Johnny tried to avoid public events, because it would make him think that something bad was going to happen and he had to be on guard and keep focus of his surroundings.

This caused his heart to race and be easily distracted rather than enjoy the event with the people he was with. 

           For example, when Johnny went into a crowded store, he took notice of the exits in case he started to feel overwhelmed and needed a quick escape. He also sat with his back against the wall and a view to the door when eating at a restaurant.

        Johnny stated that he would avoid watching action movies that depicted combat or involved explosions and violence in order to not have recurring intrusive thoughts of his experience of combat.  Watching such movies would cause him to have sudden flashbacks of the past and the events that occurred during the trauma.  When the symptoms of the PTSD were really bad, Johnny’s wife noticed him wanting to stay home all the time, a sense of withdrawal on the weekends, and even at family gatherings.

          . Johnny felt that there was a disconnect between him and society and he did not feel safe outside his perimeter (his house).  It was becoming very difficult for John to manage his life.  John also became very apprehensive of people who looked as though they came from the Middle East because he perceived them to be dangerous.

        A fourth symptom of PTSD is experiencing negative alterations in cognition and mood that begins or worsens after the traumatic event.  This symptom manifested itself in Johnny as he had persistent negative beliefs and expectations about himself and the world.  Johnny stated that he would beat himself up because he did not have a sense of direction after returning from the military and struggled with leading a meaningful life.  Some of the repeated thoughts that John would pose to himself included, “Johnny, you have lost your edge” and “Johnny, why can’t you get it together?” 

          Johnny would also experience persistent negative trauma-related emotions.  For example, years after the event, John would continue to feel a deep responsibility for what occurred.  Moreover, Johnny would continue to ask himself, “Why not me?  I was just in the next vehicle behind.”  

            Lastly, Johnny also experienced a diminished interest in (pre-traumatic) hobbies and leisure.  For example, prior to the event, Johnny was interested in gardening, bike riding, and doing outdoor activities.  After the traumatic event, Johnny lost his motivation and desire to work in the yard, riding his bike on trails, or wanting to go for nature walks.

             Another symptom caused from experiencing negative alterations in cognitions and mood was Johnny having these constant sudden anger responses when confronted, and reactions to stressful situations were not favorable, and were affecting his concentration. This occurred during times of stress that triggered a “fight or flight” response, such as someone cut him off while driving. 

          Johnny started noticing these constant undesirable responses, and that they were affecting his physical and mental health; being able to recognize familiar things, such as remembering to turn at a familiar exit.  To cope with such undesirable responses, Johnny learned to separate himself from the situation, by leaving the environment and taking a walk, or pulling over to a safe area and taking time to calm down, and putting things in perspective.

        The final symptom of PTSD is trauma-related alterations in arousal and reactivity that begin or worsen after the traumatic event.  In Johnny’s experience, he developed irritable and aggressive behaviors.  For example, when Johnny went out to family events and in groups he had a low tolerance for people who were rude and negative and he wanted to confront such people about their wrongdoing and would get into physical confrontations in order to control the situations

        Johnny also experienced hypervigilance and was always looking at his surroundings and noticing who was where and identifying his safe zones.  Johnny shared that when he experienced the hypervigilance he noticed that every muscle within his body tightens to a flight or fight response.  Moreover, Johnny shared that it was noticed by his friends and people who were around him that if there was a sudden loud noise, John had the reaction of jumpiness, was startled, and lost the ability to concentrate because he became so focused on where the noise came from.  This reaction of being startled bothered Johnny because he was always tense, and upset with himself that he reacted to all sudden loud sounds and sudden movements in his close proximity.  To this day, Johnny is still working on trying to contain how he reacts to loud noise and attempts to not lose his concentration.


The single most important act for Johnny to come out of his self-imposed isolation shell and avoid suicide, although he attempted it twice, was reaching out for help ~ starting with the VA and ending up with the Vets Center and the Healing the Wounded Heart program and Band of Brothers self-healing support group. The support and encouragement he felt in these groups greatly facilitated his eventual self-healing.      

    Johnny has developed his coping skills mostly through his association with the Veteran’s Administration and his participation in the heart centered Healing the Wounded heart program in Northern California ~ where he saw other veterans learning to cope with their problems and finding inner direction.

Some of the strategies that Johnny has learned from the Vet Center to help him manage his symptoms were grounding, living in the here and now, proper breathing techniques, and living in gratitude as well as other heart centered strategies.

Johnny also participated in cognitive behavior therapy, and getting treatment through integrative medicine treatments such as acupressure, acupuncture, and massages to help with some of the symptoms of his PTSD. 

Learning and experiencing the helpful tools that do assist with dealing and coping with PTSD ~ Johnny has gained a new perspective on life. He has learned to control his symptoms, and this has resulted in an ability to establish a positive relationship with himself, his family and the people around him. But living in gratitude has changed the way he sees life and has brought joy into his life.

His recent Master's Degree in Recreational Therapy has set him on a career path which he can thoroughly enjoy as well as make a difference.

                He is now saying Yes to himself and is no longer controlled by fear.

Johnny had this to say about his experience with the heart centered Healing the wounded Heart (Band of Brothers) self-healing experience:

"The Healing the Wounded heart (Band of Brothers) program taught me how to get back in touch with that part of myself that really matters ~ the part of me that really never left home. Now, my spirit has value and meaning. Now, I am capable of standing up on my own. I have faith in my own abilities. I am truly home now, and I see that happiness is my purpose in life as well as service to my fellow veterans. I am enjoying life more and more and my need for anything that clouds my perceptions of it has gone away."


Johnny came home when he basically learned to love again and his heart was awakened through gratefulness. Once that happened , he felt the joy beneath his fear and anxieties and he was once again in service ~ but this time from his heart.


"The key to the kingdom of heaven is Gratitude and God only reveals itself to a grateful heart"

Allen L Roland. Ph.D

Heart centered spiritual consultant and advisor Allen L Roland can be contacted at Allen is also a lecturer and writer who shares a weekly political and social commentary on his web log and website He is also featured columnist on Veterans Today and  guest hosts a monthly national radio show TRUTHTALK on

Sunday, June 14, 2015


David Whyte's well of grief can be compared to a Black Hole in space but it's deep within many who live in fear ~ but at its center is a point of convergence ~ a state of consciousness that lies beyond time and space ~ a Unified Field of love and soul consciousness whose principle property is the urge to unite ~ or as Longfellow once wrote ~ the thread of all sustaining beauty that runs through all and doth all unite: Allen L Roland, Ph.D

"We are put on Earth a little space to bear the beams of love"  ~ William Blake

It's not surprising that our lives are so inextricably bound with archetypal images of terror which we then project onto the world around us. For our entry into life is a traumatic passage through a black tunnel of fear ~ an experience of being inescapably drawn into and swallowed by a terrifying black hole that pulls us into another world !

The birth process itself evokes parallels with the near-death experience for we are entering into a another state of consciousness ~ and leaving an all unifying state of soul consciousness. We are all messengers of the soul or spiritual beings meant to eventually help the planet evolve by sharing the unique and human gift of ourselves with the world.

Picture yourself  for a moment being drawn into a black hole in space and helplessly crushed by a force far greater than yourself ~ would it feel something like this?

"An intransigent force ~ wild and out of control ~

has gripped the infant.

A blind force that hammers at it and impels it

downward ~

Overpowered, it huddles up as tightly at it can …

The walls close in further still. The cell becomes a

passageway; the passage, a tunnel.

With its heart bursting. the infant sinks into the hell.

Its fear is without limit …

The everything explodes!

The whole world bursts open.

No more tunnel, no prison, no monster.

The child is born."

These are the words of Frederick Leboyer, the famous French pediatrician, describing the birth trauma.

Birth and death both represent archetypal passages from one state, or world, to another ~ and are therefore universally apt metaphors for spiritual and psychological transformation ~ as Elizabeth Kubler Ross shared in a People Magazine interview in 1975.

These metaphors also guide my own life process and my psychological work with clients in their transition from ego consciousness to soul consciousness. For example, both my original birth trauma and my carrier pilot Final Option experience on the South China Sea were life-or-death situations dealing with forces and events that seemed totally beyond my control.

Both times I fully experienced and surrendered to crushing sensations and overwhelming terror.

The instant I fully surrendered to being crushed, I discovered a fearless hidden source of strength or a Unified Field of soul consciousness guiding me through my fear and over to the "other side."

Here's a link to my article describing that moment on VT ~  as well as a link to my book on Kindle and my YouTube work with Marina in leading her through her deepest fear.

Time after time, people have told me from the depth of their despair that the pain that they are experiencing will never end, that they will never get out of that tunnel, and that they will surely die.

However, it is the ego that seemingly dies for it is no longer needed for protection and survival for we are now beginning to trust the feeling/intuitive-receptive guidance within us ~ we become a phoenix rising from the ashes.

Remember that the ego is a cocoon of consciousness born from the fear of what lies deepest within ourselves ~ and is based on the projection of what we feel we must be in order to be loved versus who we really are.

Elizabeth Kubler Ross' five steps of the death process become eight steps as we enter the event horizon of ego death;

1. Denial ~ Everything is fine, there is nothing missing in my life ~ I'm in control of everything.

2. Anger ~ I can't stay in control and manipulate things any more ~ it's not working and making me mad.

3. Bargaining ~ I'll hang on to something so I won't get out of control and get in touch with the unknown and all those scary feelings deep inside me.

4. Depression ~ Why am I feeling so sad, and it seems to go so deep. If only I could get out of this pit of despair ~ this black hole within myself.

5. Acceptance and connection ~ I'm feeling sad and it seems so familiar and goes back so far ~ I can't deny these feelings any longer and now I'm connecting them to events in my childhood ~ it's all beginning to make sense.


6. Surrender ~ I'm completely letting go and surrendering to the moment ~ what is this joy and excitement I'm feeling beneath the sadness ~ and it doesn't have anything to do with someone else ~ there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

7. Celebration ~ I'm finally beginning to trust my deepest feelings and a growing sense that everything is going to be all right.

8. Service ~ My heart is open, I'm coming from gratefulness and I'm seeing through different eyes and I'm also seeing that I have a part to play in this loving plan by just being myself ~ my self-respect is my guide.


It is the ego and our fears that peel away, like the layers of an onion skin, when we fully surrender to love and let go through this experience of ego death ~ for the ego was always meant to be shed.

As such, the more we surrender to and trust our deepest feelings, the more powerful and urgent becomes the pull from within.  And when we do this, we eventually come out on the "other side" and into a new life. a new way of being for we are indeed seeing through different eyes and our self-respect is once again our guide.

So the great surrender is also like a birth process.

I prefer to call it transmutation ~ for we are being transformed from one kind of human being into another and love is the vehicle for this passage.

Indeed, the butterfly of the authentic person has emerged from its own protective cocoon of fear.

The famous physicist Steven Hawking has suggested that Black Holes may become White Holes at a point of singularity.

Similarly, near-death experiences report a light at the end of a dark tunnel, while our birth through the "dark tunnel" of the womb delivers us to the light of this world

What I am suggesting is that at the end of that black hole of despair within us we reach a point of psychic singularity where all notions of time and space break down, we experience a reversal in the polarity of our being and we re-establish our conscious connection with the Unified Field as we return to our original state of love and soul consciousness.

In other words, the singularity at the center of a black hole , where time and space come to an end, parallels the singularity within each one of us that leads us from the darkness and despair into the brilliant light of the Unified Field of love and soul consciousness ~ that is the very essence of our being.

I would also argue that the force that pulls us through is that love, a force so strong that all conscious beings will eventually have to surrender to its magnetic pull.

It's also Teilhard de Chardin's famous Omega point ~ "It is necessary and sufficient for us that we should  extend our science to its furthest limits and recognize and accept .. the radiation as a present reality of that mysterious center of our centers which I have called Omega"


Dr. Eben Alexander, in his bestselling book Proof of Heaven writes about his near death experience and says the same thing ~ in essence, it’s all about love;

Proof of Heaven,  p. 71 ~ “If I had to boil this entire message down to one sentence, it would run this way: "You are loved.”  And if I had to boil it down further, to just one word, it would (of course) be simply: Love. Love is without doubt, the basis of everything.  Not some abstract, hard-to-fathom kind of love, but the day-to-day kind that everyone knows – the kind of love we feel when we look at our spouse and our children, or even our animals.  In its purest and most powerful form, this love is not jealous or selfish, but unconditional.  This is the reality of realities, the incomprehensibly glorious truth of truths that lives and breathes at the core of everything that exists or that ever will exist, and no remotely accurate understanding of who and what we are can be achieved by anyone who does not know it, and embody it in all of their actions.  Not much of a scientific insight?  Well, I beg to differI’m back from that place, and nothing could convince me that this is not only the single most important scientific truth as well.”  See 7 minute video ~


David Whyte's Well of Grief is the perfect poem for describing this transition ~

Those who will not slip beneath
  the still surface on the well of grief

turning downward through its black water
     to the place we cannot breathe

will never know the source from which we drink,
     the secret water, cold and clear,

nor find in the darkness glimmering
     the small round coins
          thrown by those who wished for something else.

  ~ David Whyte
from Where Many Rivers Meet
      ©2007 Many Rivers Press


And finally Derek Walcott's poem love after love offers the perfect antidote ~ Feast on your Life.


The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was yourself.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit, Feast on your life.    


Elizabeth Kubler Ross is correct when she wrote ” Death may be viewed as the curtain between the existence we are conscious of and one that is hidden from us until we raise the curtain .“

We can raise that curtain now if we stop being controlled by fear and begin to trust the love and the spring of joy that lies deepest within ourselves.

Teilhard de Chardin wrote on the last page of his personal journal three days before his death ~ "The last enemy that shall be destroyed is Death"

And in the Activation of Human Energy Teilhard wrote ~ "But how much more comforting and 'electrifying' for our efforts would it not be if some signal or some sign, some summons or some echo, should come to us from beyond death and give us positive assurance that some center of convergence does really exist ahead of us"

The NDE signs are numerous and obvious but the summons is calling all of us from within ~ so I am suggesting and demonstrating in my work that at the end of that black hole of despair within ourselves, we also reach a point of singularity, where all notions of time and space break down and we become one with the Unified Field of love and a joyful state of soul consciousness ~ and only our fear of death and the unknown stands in the way

Beneath the well of grief is indeed a spring of Joy ~  if we have the courage to drink from its cold and clear water.

Allen L Roland, Ph.D

Heart centered spiritual consultant and advisor Allen L Roland can be contacted at Allen is also a lecturer and writer who shares a weekly political and social commentary on his web log and website He is also featured columnist on Veterans Today and  guest hosts a monthly national radio show TRUTHTALK on