Monday, August 26, 2013


The center of convergence in a near-death experience

Recent scientific experiments have shown that a person clinically dying may experience a surge of electrical activity in the brain which could be explained as a surge in consciousness as we slip away from left brain ego consciousness into the super awareness of right brain soul consciousness and thus the near and after death experience: Allen L Roland

On August 12, 2013 ~ Rebecca Morelle, a surge of electrical activity in the brain could be responsible for the vivid experiences described by near-death survivors and that in humans this could give rise to a heightened state of consciousness." See report ~

The lead author of the study, Dr Jimo Borjigin, of the University of Michigan, said: "A lot of people thought that the brain after clinical death was inactive or hypoactive, with less activity than the waking state, and we show that is definitely not the case ~ if anything, it is much more active during the dying process than even the waking state."

Dr Borjigin also said it was feasible that the same thing would happen in the human brain, and that an elevated level of brain activity and consciousness could give rise to near-death visions or, I would add, after death experiences.

It has long been my opinion that the phenomenon associated with the near and after death experience indicates that a state of unconditional love and soul consciousness lies not only beyond apparent death ~ but also beneath our deepest fears. Thus, death is an illusion measured by the limits and depth of our consciousness and only the ego resists this awareness of the boundless treasure within us all.

As such, the near and after death experience is the experience of a Unified Field of love and soul consciousness that lies not only beyond time and space but also beneath our deepest fears and most certainly beyond our present collective state of ego consciousness. See my recent article on near and after death experience ~

Dr. Eban Alexander’s Near Death Experience, as revealed in his recently published book Life Beyond Death says the same thing as he describes God as Love ~ I now fully understand the meaning of unconditional love ~ and the intensity and personal nature of that deity is the divine spark within each one of us.“  The story about Alexander's deceased sister guiding him from beyond death is priceless. 7 min video

Aldous Huxley who created and participated in many experiments of exploring the boundaries of human consciousness evidently came to the same conclusion regarding the totality and oneness of love ~ He wrote in a letter to Humphry Osmond, that he experienced "the direct, total awareness, from the inside, so to say, of Love as the primary and fundamental cosmic fact. ... I was this fact; or perhaps it would be more accurate to say that this fact occupied the place where I had been. ... And the things which had entirely filled my attention on that first occasion, I now perceived to be temptations - temptations to escape from the central reality into a false, or at least imperfect and partial Nirvanas of beauty and mere knowledge."

But it was Teilhard de Chardin who wrote on the last page of his personal journal three days before he died in 1955 ” The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death “

Teilhard knew what lay beyond death decades before the well documented wave of near and after death experiences that have become a modern day phenomenon. He yearned for some sign or signal to be given from beyond death ~ so that others might know what he knew. In that vein, he wrote in Activation of Human Energy ~ ” How comforting and ‘electrifying’ it would be if some signal or sign, some summons or echo, should come to us from beyond death ~ and give us positive assurance that some center of convergence really does exist ahead of us. “

Teilhard’s life work was the reinterpretation of Christianity in the light of evolution, but his great life dilemma was that very few people could understand the truths that were so obvious to him, and myself for that matter ~ that God is love.  Teilhard wrote that "Love alone is capable of uniting living beings in such a way as to complete and fulfill them for it alone takes them and joins them to what is deepest within themselves."

It is my premise that the near death experience allows someone to momentarily pass through the dark tunnel of internal pain, aloneness, despair and apparent death ( from which the ego and ego consciousness is born ) into a state of light and soul consciousness which is one in the same with our deepest connection to the Unified Field.

As a licensed therapist, with over 40 year's experience of dealing with people’s deepest fears and anxieties, I can unequivocally state that the experience of surrendering to one’s deep and long repressed feelings of pain, alienation, aloneness and despair is almost always initially experienced as a dark tunnel of never-ending pain which leads to death ~ and must be avoided at all costs. However, it is only the ego and fear that gradually die in the well of grief while joy and a true sense of self emerge from hiding like a phoenix rising from the ashes. It is no different than being pulled into a black hole in space ~ except that the black hole is within ourselves but beneath it is the immense joy, intention and purpose of a Unified field of love and soul consciousness.

Just as Stephen Hawking has suggested that black holes in space may in essence become white holes at a point of singularity, where all notions of time and space break down ~ so I am claiming that at the end of the black hole of despair within ourselves ~ we also reach a point of singularity, where all notions of time and space break down and we become one with a Unified Field of unconditional love and soul consciousness.

The same thing happened to myself over 40 years ago when I fully opened my heart and then let go and surrendered to my own well of grief and tumbled through a rabbit hole into my own singularity and a state of love and soul consciousness ~ wherein my life became inner directed, versus outer directed, and my heart became my guide from a place of gratitude and service.

The near and after death experience is direct proof that this phenomenon is happening and most probably in the final stages of death ~ when a demonstrated surge of electrical activity would indicate that the right brain and a state of soul consciousness would become dominant and a fear based left brain state of ego consciousness would no longer be needed for survival and protection purposes.

I have experienced two after death experiences which would verify this phenomenon or state of consciousness that exists beyond time and space ~ both with people who I deeply loved. It's interesting to note that both of these people appeared joyful, youthful and obviously ego-less.

1. My own mother suddenly and unexpectedly died in 1987 a few months after reading my paper on the Unified Field. But she appeared to me at the moment of her death, some 3000 miles away, sitting on my bed and lovingly and joyfully saying these words to me ~ ” Allen , I Know, Allen I Know .. “  See article ~

2. Feeling and seeing my twin brothers joyful presence, literally jumping with joy, after his passing on August 17, 2013.  See article ~

Thus, it appears that death is an illusion measured by the limits and depth of our consciousness and only by surrendering to love will this truth be revealed ~ and we resist this path at our individual and collective peril.
We are put on Earth a little space to bear the beams of love: William Blake

Allen L Roland

Freelance Alternative Press Online columnist and transformational counselor Allen L Roland is available for comments, interviews, speaking engagements and private Skype consultations

Allen L Roland is a practicing psychotherapist, author and lecturer who also shares a daily political and social commentary on his web log and website He also guest hosts a monthly national radio show TRUTHTALK on

Tuesday, August 20, 2013


Twins holding hands after birth

My twin brother, Bobby died in his sleep early in the morning on August 17, 2013. Bobby passed through the event horizon of death knowing he was loved, most certainly by myself, and safely cradled once again in the arms of his beloved grandfather who eagerly welcomed him into a Unified Field of love, joy and soul consciousness that exists not only beyond time and space but also beneath our deepest fears: Allen L Roland 

“Beyond our ideas of right-doing and wrong-doing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase ‘each other’
doesn’t make sense anymore.” Rumi

When my twin brother suddenly and courageously let go of his bitter, determined and angry fight to beat the crippling effects of late stage Parkinson's disease and began to accept his situation, the day before his sudden passing on August 17th ~ I immediately felt a profound lightness for I was indelibly connected to my twin's struggle to survive and on a heart level have been actively preparing him for his inevitable passage, even though I was 3000 miles away.

That included encouraging our High School baseball team mate Jim to visit him every week at a nursing home for the past several months and remind Bobby after every visit of my deep love for him.

Bobby was also preparing himself, unbeknownst to me, by visiting our grandfather's grave every week and bringing fresh flowers ~ somehow sensing he would eventually be joining him in the not too distant future before he became bedridden with his Parkinson's disease.

After he became immobile, his devoted daughter Janice would drive him every day to Grampy Joe's gravesite to either water or replace the flowers and became part of his ongoing tribute to his deepest source of conscious unconditional love.

In November of 2012, I sent him a letter titled  Love Note To My Twin ~ which was read to him by his wife and set the stage for his final passage ~ " The twin connection defies description, Bobby ~ it’s a loving connection that goes beyond time and space ~ it’s a deep knowing soul connection that was cemented in the womb as well as our shared birth experience. Since I am the first born twin, two minutes before you, it is my responsibility to prepare you for the final transition by sharing that God (a loving plan in action) only reveals itself to a grateful heart and that alone will prepare you for your final passage. My heart is most definitely grateful that you were my loving twin and companion for so many years and I will most certainly be with you in your final moments and most definitely when you pass through the event horizon of physical death. Right now, you may feel increasingly alone since it’s so difficult to speak and move ~ but you are being well taken care of and are most certainly loved by your immediately family as well as brothers and sisters. But be aware that I am already holding your hand, as I did as a young infant, and as you look out that window at the Thompson Club playing field you will see me beckoning to you, with a baseball bat on my shoulder, telling you to hurry up before the summer rain squall starts and you will smile knowingly and be grateful, as I am, that you are indeed blessed to be a twin."  See letter ~

Bobby is now in a state of soul consciousness and gloriously happy for I felt his joyful presence the morning he passed and actually saw his childlike playful presence, at a much younger age, much like I felt and saw our mother's youthful loving presence when she suddenly passed away in 1987 ~ when she lovingly appeared in my bedroom 3000 miles away joyfully exclaiming to me ~ Allen, I know, Allen, I Know

It was also at that time, at my mother's funeral in 1987, that Bobby reached out to me from a lost and alone place to help him discover a new direction in his life ~ which was in shambles at that time.
From 3000 miles away, I helped Bobby go inside to face his deepest fears and aloneness but he couldn't let go ~ but he at least got to a place of another choice and we bonded even deeper during that experience. My point being that my twin was also on a quest to find a lost and alone child within himself but was not ready yet to let go and face the psychic pain that separated him from that innocent and joyful child that I loved so deeply and experienced the morning that he passed.

But my most important gift to my twin brother was empowering his daughter Vanessa to go beyond her resentment issues with her dad, find and embrace the joy beneath her pain and see beneath my brother's shame and unworthiness issues and begin to see through her heart ~ for it was Vanessa who was there at his sudden end, who kept reminding him that I was holding his hand and that his grandfather was also waiting for him, who would not allow herself to be pushed away by his denial and anger ~ which is why, in his last lucid moments, he asked Vanessa to hold his hand, thus surrendering to his deeper love and gratefulness, connecting to my love as well as our beloved grandfather and thus set the stage for his final passage into Rumi's field of bliss early the next morning.

But it wasn't the playing field across the street where I was waiting for him ~ it was a Unified Field of love, joy and soul consciousness which most certainly exists beyond time and space and was always beneath his deepest fear and pain ~ a field of loving consciousness and connectedness we both experienced in the womb as well as young children and a field where we are now once again delightfully reunited.

Somehow this song seems appropriate for my beloved twin who has and will always live in my heart ~ Danny Boy

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”  Rumi

Allen L Roland

Freelance Alternative Press Online columnist and transformational counselor Allen L Roland is available for comments, interviews, speaking engagements and private Skype consultations ( )

Allen L Roland is a practicing psychotherapist, author and lecturer who also shares a daily political and social commentary on his web log and website He also guest hosts a monthly national radio show TRUTHTALK on